RIDAYA

Every breathe I take is just for you..
With the hope someday you would be besides me…
Trying to touch my face…trying to read my eyes..
Trying to enjoy the comfort in my arms with pride..
Hope is what is keeping me alive…
Wanted to be with you my only reason to be alive..
I had dreamt of thousand things…
In anticipation of your arrival….
U arrived and slipped from my sight….
So far that I just can’t wander….
Days have passed seasons have changed..
Ur smile Ur first step all I have missed for life time..
Nobody understand that the father has been deprived..
Deprived to such a extent that nothing on the planet will fill such a huge void..
I look for you in every child I see…
I smile at every soul anticipating you will smile…
I cover my wounds with a gaze of iron…
Still my eyes let out my emotion all the while…
Where did I go worng….
What have I done…
Does a father has no right to speak his heart out..
My heart burns when you look at me as a stranger..
My eyes rage with tears when you try to avoid me as a unknown stranger…
Time has passed….I have lost all….
Lost to see my child cuddle in love..
Lost to see my child smile with trust…
Lost to see my child sleeping calmly…
Lost to see my child looking out for me..
Oh…my God….what have I done…
Why do you make me suffer so much…
Where do I go for justice now??
Am I so unhuman that I deserve it a lot…
When will the suffering end….
When will I smile again…
When will I hug my child…
When will I sing a lullaby till she falls asleep…
When will it all happen…
When will it take place..
When will I enjoy and play with my child…
When will I feed her and feel satisfied…
Seeing her content when will I sleep in peace…
Oh Lord don’t test me more….
Oh.Lord forgive me once more…
My heart is bleeding in pain…
Forgive me Oh Lord…
Your child is dying in pain…

Nirbhay Sudhir Pimple

Saw you after couple of months…
Just to find out that you are grown so much….
I anticipated you will fit in my hands….
But you have grown far beyond my shoulder…
What else could hurt so much…
To find out that daughter finds father a stranger…
Tore apart my heart into pieces….
Bleeding soul with just hope along….
How do I make you recognise me…
How do I make you feel my heart beat….
The fear in your eye….
Was never what I longed for…
The eagerness to push me apart…
Was never I have ever dreamt off….
Wanted to kiss you with a blessing…
Wanted to feel you resting peaceful in my arms…
What I have lost nothing can match up…
The emotion and feelings are never showered up….
The tears in my eyes are all dried up…
The bleeding heart has nothing to lose now….
Holding on the soul still surviving….
Just to see u running back in my arms….
Nirbhay Sudhir Pimple